Coolness is OUT

When I was a kid my mom and Dad were what I would consider very strict. Especially when it came to music. They were 'so lame' I would have told you, everyone listens to Madonna. What is the problem?

The year was 1988 and we were in our Honda Accord on our way to Cleveland from Wooster ( about an hour) listening to my George Micheal cassette. Duh, like I didnt know trouble was looming. So "I want your sex" comes on and I remember sitting in the backseat trying to talk over the music so that my parents cant hear the over sexed language just oozing from the speakers.  In one second my dad takes the cassette out of the player and throws it out the window saying  "what in THE hell are you listening to?"

Another time I had written the words down to Salt n peppas "push it good".  I was trying to memorize them..I can't tell you for what. It was just cool to shout out a line to a cool song while in the lunch line.  So picture this,  my dad finds the words to the song on a piece of notebook paper (that I left by the phone!)  and thinks that it's a note to a boy. This is what the note says " yeah, you come here and give me a kiss, better make it fast or else I'm gonna get pissed." This is how they thought I talked to boys. I was grounded for weeks and weeks. They never did get that it was a song.

I have to say that I am shocked by some of the songs out there. They are way worse than the 80's. My niece was here last summer singing crazy songs like Flo-rida's "You spin me right round baby right round" a song I happen to enjoy,  but when her sweet little face is singing words that that I hate she knows,  I had to turn it off.

What has happened to me? I used to be so cool. I'm scared of the 2020's.

Were having a baby!

This is the best day ever. We had an ultrasound this morning. Dr. Allbert was happy to report that the baby's head is measuring right on target. Baby Grayson's head completely stopped growing between 27-28 weeks. This baby's head is 28 weeks/4 days. PERFECT. Her whole body is growing perfectly! Her belly is even measuring 30 wks/1 day. Both Addie and Grayson were so tiny, this one might be a chubby one! How awesome is that?

The doctor also said that she has a 99% chance of survival with NO long term disabilites!

We're having a baby! Were actually going to take home a screaming, tiny eating machine with kissable cheeks and pinchable thighs. I think in the back of my head I have always thought that we were going to cross a road where someone was going to tell us that there is something wrong and it just wasnt meant to be. I am finally allowing myself to dream about feeling my baby in my arms, snuggling up to my neck, and smelling her baby soft skin. I picture her cooing, her legs and arms uncontrollably kicking away. Her first smiles, soon turning into belly laughs, and watching Addie play.

I'm over come with emotion today. Today is the day that a long awaited dream is starting to become a reality. I am so thankful.

Let the shopping begin!

Welcome back Addison

Addison has been away in Charleston, SC with her Grandparents for one whole week. It has been so helpful not to worry who is going to pick her up from school, keep her at their house until Matt gets home and so on. Luckily we have great neighbors that are always willing to pick her up and keep her at any time, but I still feel like we are being invasive.

So Addison took a nice, long vacation during spring break. Problem is, we missed her like CRAZY.

Matt's parents brought her in last night and I almost cried just seeing her and how much she had grown! I couldnt stop hugging and kissing her cute little face. I had to watch it cuz I was starting to get the annoyed  'your touching me too much' look. 1 week, that's all it was and I swear she looked like a 5 year old. She brought a giant bag full of stuff to show me, a new outfit to twirl around in and show off, told me all about her escapades (especially seeing the white alligator at the aquarium) and had a HUGE smile on her face the entire time she was here.

The best part was when Matt walked in after work. She was hiding under the sink from him, so we went through the whole "where is Addie?  I thought she was with you?" until out she popped with a Boo! and literally jumped into Matt's arms. Those two just stood there hugging with Addison's head on his shoulder for about 2 whole minutes. I swear I don't think my heart has ever felt more full.

I can't wait for this baby, the love we have for our children, it's an amazing, powerful thing.

scratch it off my wierdo list

I had a list that makes me wierd that I put together a few weeks ago. On that list I said that I love getting shots and look forward to giving blood. I take it all back. I hate shots, IV's and giving blood.

I'm quirky, but that IS just wierd.

Thank you everyone

To everyone that reads my blog and comments, Thank you. It's so nice to know that people are reading and caring. I appreciate each one of your comments and read them every day.

Love to you all
Amy

Here for the duration....

I had a pretty ugly night in the hopsital on Saturday night. Woke up in a pool of blood around 11:30, I had thought my water broke. I called for the nurses, 5 came running in trying to find the babies heartbeat, starting an IV line, cleaning me up, changing me into a gown, yelling for the doctor to bring the ultrasound machine because they couldnt find her Heartbeat. It had to be a full five minutes before the doctor ran in with the machine and immediatly put the doppler on my stomach. The head nurse stood behind him waiting, waiting, my breath was caught in my throat. She looked into my eyes and said, "yes, there it is. " breathe, in and out. I was able to get Matt on the phone to let him know that what was happening and that they were moving me to labor and delivery. If the bleeding didnt stop, I was getting a cesarean. Matt was here in 15 minutes, we live in a another state. I'm sure many laws were broken en-route.

In labor and delivery, the babies heart rate was fine, but I was having contractions. They talked about giving me magnesium sulfate, which I hear just makes you want to die. I got steroid shots to help the babies lungs mature and we were monitored for the next 18 hours. I didnt sleep a wink that night. We are so close, this is just too early. She would be in the NICU until her due date and while she is a perfectly viable baby, she would have to go through some horrible stuff for the next 3 months.

I have had 2 big bleeds in one week. It's not looking good to go full term. In fact pretty much there is no chance. 34 weeks might be the longest we can keep her in with placenta previa.

She is going to be fine,  I have complete faith, please pray and keep us in your thoughts.

Technology rocks

So I have been in the hospital since Sunday. I had a minor placental abruption  that seemed to clear itself up by Sunday night. They are planning on keeping me here until Monday. I have to say it's nice to be monitored so closely and being here gives me added security that the baby is doing OK.

I do have some issues that I am going to warn you come along with a lot of spoiled complaining. If you can't stand whining and fit throwing then you should stop reading now.

Let's start with the positive. The hospital room is very nice. It has a small refrigerator, private bath, a couch for visitors or husbands that would like to spend the night and a small TV. The staff totally rocks, all are so sweet and will do anything to calm my nerves.

So here is where I start my little tirade. Let me just tell you how much Matt and I love TV. We have one in just about every room. We have our big screen in the basement and we even have our outside deck wired for one. Every one of these includes DVR, sometimes commonly referred to as TiVo.

After dinner, where we have got a minute by minute play of Addie's day, one or all of the TV's are turned on for our enjoyment.   Addison is usually watching Full House for the 100th time upstairs in her play room, Matt is watching ESPN downstairs  and I have Millionaire Matchmaker on in the living area.. Once Addie goes to bed,  God forbid Matt and I would take some time to actually talk to each other after a long day, no we look to TV to de-stress. Sometimes we say, "so do you want to talk?" and then we slightly chuckle and say "Nah, that's crazy talk, let's go downstairs and watch Big Love." This is where DVR comes in. I have no idea what nights ANYTHING is actually on. All of the shows that we regularly watch is on DVR. Just poof!  It's there and we get to watch it commercial free and during American Idol, Kara and Randy free!

In my hospital room, it's 100% TV all the time. There is no GUIDE much less DVR. I have 75 channels and do you think that I can find anything to watch? I have no idea what time anything comes on, much less where NBC or FOX is. So at 7:58 I start scanning the channels trying to make the start of any show. Once I find a show that looks like it was made this century, I take a minute or two to figure out what it is, then continue to scan the channels to see if anything better is on, all the while trying to remember what channel that one show was on that I thought might be good to watch.

 How did we live without this amazing thing called DVR? I remember living with 3 channels in the 70's and you had to get UP to change the channel, so why is this so bad?

I guess we just get so spoiled by every day tchnology, even if it is realitively new.  DVR was just invented like 5 years ago so how do we not remember a day without it! It's like everything else, ATM cards, cell phones, MP3 players, COMPUTERS! We have come so far! In fact I would venture to say that the 70's was closer to the age of the dinosaurs than now.

I guess I will just go back to the good old days and listen to radio while here in the hospital. There is a great show that I listen to on my iphone (could'nt do that a few years ago) it's called the Matt and Ramona show.It makes me happy and I don't have to search for it. 107.9 THE LINK. 3-7. (I know, shameless...)